Why do I do things that I know will upset me? Why do I read the comments of anything on facebook?
Why oh why.
I know I partly do it because 1) I want to know what people are thinking. 2) It is a safe thing to get mad at.
But it is no longer safe.
I am letting it get to me in an unhealthy way. It is starting to make me question who I am and what I believe. Partly because I have not spent enough time doing the work to make my own faith structure strong enough, at least not recently. So I get really disheartened and angry and just want to throw in the towel. Don't call me a Christian, I'm not one of those people.
But I am a Christian.
I do believe that Jesus is more than a nice guy. I do believe there is salvation through Christ. Really, I do.
So maybe I should be reclaiming instead of hiding.
And I do know when I do talk about what I believe with someone and how it affects my life, it does matter and it does start to change perspective.
Sometimes it can be hard to be either the only liberal in the room of Christians or the only Christian in the room of liberals.
But let's get real, I am so lucky because I live in a place that this doesn't happen all that much. I have lots of pretty rad liberal Christian friends. Who are some of the most thoughtful, intelligent people I know.
So really what I need to do is have lunch with some friends, read the Bible or some good theology books and stay away from comment sections for a while.
Thanks, blog for helping work that out. :)